i swim for brighter days despite the absence of sun.

j'aime paris beacoup!

every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

 i feel like all livejournal has become now is a place for me to release all my negativity, since not many people read this anymore it seems to be a good place to do that. which makes me seem very negative and sad and mad all the time, but i'm not. i swear!

well i guess since i'm writing on livejournal i might as well say something negative like i always do, haha
i'm really doubting things right now. and i'm just going to leave it at that.

 im falling to pieces
et je ne sais pas quoi faire...

 being back in milwaukee makes me realize why i wanted to get out in the first place.
there are still things i love about milw and people i love here, but at the same time there are many things that i'm not so much a fan of.
about 2 weeks til madison/back to school. crazy how much of winter break is left!!!!

part of me wonders if ill ever even be friends with all my so called "high school friends" in the future...many of them are stuck in their old clicks, and it feels just like high school when everyone gets together which is weird. oh well!

 i have so many emotions locked up inside. 

wishing the people in my dorm werent so clicky...its like high school all over again. welcome back fab five. 
wishing i knew what classes to take next semester, so damn frustrated
wishing i didnt drop my sorority...well sorta.
wishing i could see you more often because sometimes it just kills me
wishing you were staying in madison next yr, but i really highly doubt it.
wishing life wasnt how it is..jkfdsrtdfgkljjfgddb

i  wish things were different 
in many ways...

i want  someone to send me real mail
but instead i get bills form madison saying i owe like $1300...

 i wish i was somewhere else.
or i wish things were different

the end. for good? seems like it. your choice though. 

JACKS MANNEQUIN IS COMING TO SUMMERFEST. :) :) :) :) :) that makes me so happy!! i cant wait. 

i also cant wait for PROM this friday!!!!!! cant wait to get all dressed up and stuff.

only 2 days of school for meeeeeeeee 
wednesday= madison accepting scholarship 
thurs & fri= IB english exam 

:) 

toured loyola, nice campus, decent dorms, and they have these smart washing machines that you can look up on the comp, if one if available and then when its done with your wash it either sends you an email or a text message, haha isnt that great?! and they have their own campus in ITALY, aka id be going to loyola and having the same profs and learning everything in english but be in italy and have 4 days of school and 3 days to tour italy & other countries. and they have this new bilingual education program  they jus started last yr which would def be good for me.

buuuuuut the only thing keeping me from going there is the type of people. :-/ 

i still have time to decide, we'll seehow things turn out. 

im exhausted!!! i hate waking up early. womp womp.

life just went from fine to lkjslfjslafsa in a matter of an hour. 
fuck them. im sick of this.